Jessjess BaBy

"You are all sons of GOD through faith in Christ Jesus, for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ." ~Galatians 3:26-27

Hallelujah~! I baptised~! Really really really excited~! I want to give thanks…Give thanks to GOD~! Heavenly father Lord, I love you~!Love you, Lord~!

Before this, baptism in my mind is just a ‘procedure’ which need to do on every christian. I really no idea with the importance of it. I don’t know what will happen to the person after receiving baptism…

Huh~! I experienced it… I did it finally. I don’t know that is really a big changing… Sometimes I will blame others that, why they can’t understand me? However, what I realized is, I myself don’t really understand my own self. I don’t ever know that I can’t control my emotion at that moment, at the moment I received baptism, what I know is, I really really happy. If possible, I wish to hug that person at that moment… That person is the most important person in my life… My mother~!  (Well, she was not there, never mind la, at least I hugged god mother~Lai Sing…)

Thanks~! Thanks everyone who did encouranged me in the past. Thanks everyone who supported me when I started believing in GOD… That was a very tough moment to me. There are many many problems occured when I started believed in GOD. Well, I had overcame it, by faith, by the strength that GOD given to me…

"Forgetting what is behind and straining towardwhat is ahead" ~Philippians 3:13

Thanks Danny that brought me to Christ, to this big family, Thanks Sophia who leading me from the first day I was in cell until today she’s my godly mother. Thanks Siau Wei and Michael who bringing me alot of new info that I don’t know and spiritually, they helped me alot. Thank Sisters Brothers in CellG and church~FCC… Thanks also encouragement from Irene,Eric, Jon, and Desmond oh… Even though I seldom talk with u guys, but through the msn and frienster, u guys really changed my mind alot. Really… I’m really happy to know u all, brothers… Because of everyone, everyone, I learnt these… "He called you to this through our gospel, that you might share in the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ" ~2 Thessalonians 2:14

"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of GOD, who loved me, and gave himself for me." ~Galatians 2:20

SHE was a training nurse in England before. She told us how’s England nursing life compared to Malaysia.

I was like, erm… if one day i finish my contract then surely I’ll change my environment to other places. Actually before I join nursing, I have told that, that’s opportunity to work in Saudi. And within one or two years then can come back to Malaysia and live better. But when i get the further infomation, that I need to learn their language… Oh oh~~ Well, I think shouldn’t be a problem la. (GOD will give me the ability de… heheh)

And somemore, today tutor told us the environment in England was much more better than Saudi. Both got their advantages. England, the people there are really respect nurses compared to here. (In malaysia, the people will treated nurses as maid…) and sometimes, when there is off days, those nurses even can travel to Paris, London, cause it’s very near by. Well, Saudi, there are quite strict, when u stay there u got to follow their culture by fully covering all over ur body. However, u can see many many abnormal cases that u can’t easily see in our country somemore private hospital. I wish to learn and I willing to see those things that not everyone able see… cause we got no chance.

Other people will say, why u can choose nursing? Even my parent, my relatives all keep on asking the same question. because in my whole family included my mother’s side or my father’s side, there have no one in this field. It’s a break thru for me. Hiakhiak~! (Friend, let GOD leads ur way, u no need know where u are going)

Erm, my answer to them are, everytime i went to hospital visit anyone, when there is prcedure going on, we always asked to wait outside. I don’t like that feeling. So i tell myself, next time, i want to be the one who ask people wait outside… HAHAHA~!

Some elderly asked me, so did u see people died? Yes, I did. Did u see baby delivered? Yes, I did. Did u see people do operation? Yes, I did. I even experienced a person actually in a good condition suddenly no breathing and shout for help? Wau~! I really enjoy my job. Not saying I’m bad that cursing people to sick or to die. But that is part of LIFE. Isn’t it true? I was just choosing the way to get the chance to see all these, that not everyone can experience the process. Even an elderly, they delivered their own baby but dunno how the baby come out and all the stuff, they only xperienced the pain which I didn’t… Even there are elderly seen dead body but didn’t experience when a person stop breathing and heartbeat stop.

All these are really amazing. that is LIFE. Me, as a student, we will always exchange our stories among our classmate. cause we all experienced different things with different feeling.

Huh~! I don’t know Friend, how’s ur thinking about a nurse… Let me tell u, I myself really respect nurses. I’m just a student… I respect those who experienced alot alot. Mine is just ‘kacang’… And of course those who are really doing their job… ‘taking care’. Because some nurses treating that, that is a work. Their figure are doing the work but not the heart…

So friend, nurses also classified in many ways oh…RESPECT~!

Not everyone are bad, of course, not everyone is good enough. Cause human being are not perfect…

爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈； 爱是不嫉妒，爱是不自夸，不张狂，不做害羞的事，不求自己的益处，不轻易发怒， 不计算人的恶，不喜欢不义，只喜欢真理；凡是包容，凡是相信，凡是盼望，凡是忍耐。

哥林多前书 13：4-7

Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, It does not boast, It is not proud. It is not rude, It is not self-seeking, It is not easily angered, It keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

每一个人，当他失去了才知道珍惜。当他决定了才知道后悔。当他离开了或让他离开了才知道不舍得。

故事的开始就从—“爱情小插曲”

“等待，常会为人带来一些苦闷和无奈。但能坚守到最后一刻的人，往往会得到幸福。”

《两年半前》

在一家私立医院，住着一个很健康的病人。（这是他自己说的哦）刚进院的几天，他的确很健康。日子一天一天的过去，病情也跟着日子慢慢的恶化起来。就在这时，他遇见了她。他们第一次见面。

她，是个见习护士。她在面对他的时候，很酷。因为她是胡斐的后代。（什么话？这也是他作的）

他们的相识恨特别。就在他那四小时努力的等待。她答应了和他喝午茶。她第一次跟陌生人坐同一台喝那一杯陌生的茶。就在喝茶的笑谈中，他们成为了好友。他对她无微不至。每一次都很努力的逗她…

他们感情很好。她甚至欠他一个人情债。有一次，她的最亲受伤了，他二话不说立刻赶到，送她们去了医院。这是她永远不会忘记的。也借着这个机会，他们的感情更好了。

他在她心中，占据了个地位。可是当时的她，是个有男朋友的小女孩。她不想因为一个陌生的他，放掉那三年puppylove的男朋友。可是他太好了，不管什么事，他永远好像守护天使般的在保护着她。

日子一天一天的过去，他们的关系越来越好。她还是不敢作出什么决定。等待着他。当时的他，尊重她。两个人就这样，花开不了，哪儿来的果？

终于有一次，她决定了，自己不该有男朋友了还跟其他男生太友好。就在很不恰当的情况之下，他与她男朋友见面了。她感觉得到他，好疼好疼。 她也不好受。她开始怪自己，怪自己让他疼。怪自己也让自己疼。

可是已没什么可以补救了。他慢慢的离开她。甚至离她到外国去。走前还以为他们可以再见一面。她以为他已放得下了，她也开始学会放下了。没去送他。

一个月一个月的时间，她不知道他过得如何？只知道自己经过好多的考验，她突然想起他。在跟他联络上后，她却突然觉得，她原来好想好想他的。直到他告诉她说，为什么他离开前不留他？他在等着她开声要他留下啊~！

她昏了~！她没想到一直在她身边保守着她的守护天使一直都没离开过。她突然觉得自己好笨哦！她好后悔。可是后悔已没得回头了。 他已离开了。他要她向前看，可是她只见到以前的影子~每一件事，每一件她拒绝他的事…阵阵的刺在心。

她不敢要求了，只想再见到他，继续他们那非朋友一般的感情。可能已经没可能了，可是她相信上帝会为他们做个最好的决定的。因为，面对着上帝，没有什么是不可能的。

她，接到了他的信息~说他会为了她，在明年回来。她快跳起来了~！（毫不矜持也）这是上帝的安排吗？感谢主~！ 她不管了，她只想见到他。就算一面也好，虽然不够，她会顺服上帝的。因为她信！

Hah~? I’m now single… IMPOSSIBLE… But yet, I am.

I had never been living alone… I never think to live alone. Because I relied to others. Especially my boyboy. But just because of this, I had lost myself, no more myself.

Until the time I come know Jesus Christ, and I realize that coupling not because of other coupling so that I am. Courtship is to come nearer to marriage.

What is marriage to u, friend?

It is a sub action that u need to do at least once in your life or an action which when you think that you love that person, you want to live with her/him, take care or her/him, love her/him…

Nowadays peoples thinking changed… They think that they suddenly want then they did it. But they didn’t think for is that what they actually asking for? Come on, PLAN IT man~!

Some people will think that I’m kinda stupid. Because of I feel that my boy friend is not a Christian. Huh~! This is one of the reason why we stop it. I did given him quite a lot of time to turn his mind. I even think that even though he is not, but as long he can accept me to become a Christian, giving me support… but he didn’t. That’s why… arguement and quarrel become frequent. Yes, we talked and we understand each point. But, what I realize is… NO means NO~!

By the way, I know he did try hard to accept me, but he can’t. I’m not saying that Christian with non Christian then MUST separate. But, if he/she can follow then surely is the best… we are not looking at the point of yes or no. but the point of view towards GOD. Once he/she can’t accept, means every tougher things will come to you.

I never think that, since you don’t follow that means you mind your business… I jus waiting for the day that GOD will bring you back to this big family. Not only my ex-boy friend, but everyone, everyone surrounding me… I really meant it…

Anyway, I really enjoy my life now. Of course, sometimes did feel like abit of lonely, but I know GOD always with me. And my relationship with those brothers sisters in church become closer. And my time really filled with meaningful. And I learnt alot… Thank GOD given all these to me. It’s a gift, I know.

THANKSSS~!!!